Five months. Thats how long its been since my little Dion entered the World. 5 months means he’s not brand new and really little anymore, it means he’s going to be entering new stages that this Mommy just ain’t ready for yet!
I have a problem with change, always have. Those who know me well, know this about me. And although I know I also wouldn’t want time to stand still, I think what I don’t like about change – or time moving forward, is that you can never go back. Whats done is done. I will never see either of my babies at this age. Ever. Again.
I know we have heard it… ” It seems like yesterday… ” But when I look at Dion and the stage he is at now, I remember my Levi when he was this age, which –
I finally got the photo album I ordered today. Its from 2010 and I couldn’t believe how much Levi has grown up! I felt almost guilty because I feel like – maybe I was too preoccupied with being pregnant that I didn’t really realize how little he still was. It’s funny because as they grow older you think they’re ” so big!” Its not until you look back that you remember, just how little they really were.
I ran into a elderly woman not long ago at the supermarket. And like most elderly Gramma types she wanted to see the baby. She said one thing to me that I think about all the time.
” You know back in the day we had a lot of kids, 5 – 7, it was really busy and now I always think – Did I hold them enough? Did I look at their little feet? and touch their little hands? ” It was a reminder to me to treasure every moment, savour every mile stone.
So that when I’m older I can feel confident knowing; Yes I held them as much as I could,
What wonderful words of wisdom…
Why is that whenever you look back on life its always seems better than when you lived it? Maybe its just me, I don’t know, but I think this all the time.
But really, THESE are the good ol days! Because I know now when I look back, I won’t remember the crying, the whining, the hard work, the exhaustion…